Friday, April 29, 2011
It came from nowhere
But by all accounts Robert wasn't surprised (as the Italians say....he knows his chicken) - I spent the day of the Royal Wedding either in tears, fighting the tears or asleep so the tears couldn't come out. But it had all started out perfectly ok - the kids went off to school, I had sent off all the jobs that needed to go so I could spend the morning watching the live coverage (Thomas had asked me to tape it all but somehow I knew he wouldn't want to watch all 8 hours of it - and apart from that he had this strange notion I would be watching the Italian coverage - BBC??? duh????). I knew I would get a bit choked up when they actually got married - weddings do it for me - I have never been to a wedding where I haven't shed a tear or two - I can barely even speak about ours without the same thing happening - I'm a softy, what can I say - but the tears that came yesterday were different - Kate looked lovely it's true - but London looked even lovlier (to my eyes) - and I was overcome by a homesickness for England that I haven't felt in years - everytime they showed, well, all the sorts of shots like the ones below I felt that awful feeling that I think only those who have ever suffered from homesickness can know - and I had forgotten all about it. When I first came to Italy I would have the odd day or so (usually around Christams or, weirdly, on Saturdays) then once the kids were born it changed a lot - I thought about them and had less time to think about me - then, when Robert and I got together homesickness for the UK disappeared all together - he knows where I come from, (his Mum and Dad were Scottish and so although he grew up in Canada he had a British sort of home), he knows things about life in the UK when I was growing up and I guess I am older, I have been here for 22 years and I like my life here - but yesterday seeing all the pomp and ceremony of London I missed it so much - I missed it also because while my kids know England they will never 'get' it like I do - they will never really know what it's like because they have never called it 'home'. There are a lot of things wrong with England today, I know, but what happened in London and England yesterday really is one of the things that England gets right - every time - and London looked lovely - and I was proud..